'Life lived for others is a life worth living'?

thanx to aisha for this. she asked me the above question.

It got me thinking and that usually doesnt go well.hehe. im realy not so sure abt the above statement anymore. i used to really believe in that. then after the past years i look back and what do i see? ppl who didnt give a shit, ppl whom unintentionally took advantage of it, and ppl hu deliberately did.

a very simple example. one day i was lied to about sumthin big and was kept on being lied to about it. when i found out it was like "its no big deal right? u dont even know how to get mad dho? so i didnt think it was a problem". its not much i guess but i jes HATE being lied to.

A friend once did tell me "ur being too nice. jes stand up for once and start thinking about urself". she gave a HUGE lecture.heheh. she's right i guess.

And there's been a complain like " whats wrong with u? ur supposed to HATE me after all thats happend. u seriously need help". Y? cos i believed that she could stop doing all those bad things and change after all the stuff she did? maybe im weird. but then again, thats me. i need to change i guess. then again ive met some really wonderful ppl. i know i know. i shouldnt change the way i am jes becos i met some ppl hu's said stuff like that. but what if its someone whom u really believed in. someone who knew everything about u and was the one person whom u thote would be different. lol. toldya its bad when i think.hehe.

the thing that came to me was 'never trust or believe in anyone too much'. the words have got meaning to it and it is right u know. it dusnt necessarily mean not to trust ppl but it means not to eliminate the thought that it might turn out bad. and that it will be different. there's only been a few cases in which it went bad. and the funny part is, when it goes bad, it goes really bad.

Ever been in a situation where a problem arose that wasnt ur fault but u were the one to suffer badly for it? the one who made u suffer knew that it wasnt ur fault too. i was SUPPOSED to hate that person and never speak to that person ever again. jes like that in an instance. forced to make that decision. what would u do? throw that over one year frindship away jes like that for something u werent to blame for? jes say that person didnt deserve my friendship after forgetting all the wonderful memories that were shared? wouldnt THAT make me an aweful person? especially if that person was the closest friend u had?

I believe that ppl make mistakes all the time. sometimes those mistakes are really huge and considered unforgivable. but everyone deserves a second chance. even if ur the one who has to suffer for it jes to get that friend back. what would u do? jes listen to that person and walk away? but then again wouldnt that mean that the friendship u shared didnt mean anything and wasnt half as strong as u thought it to be? should that make a difference?

P.S- dont worry, i wont change jes cos some shit happened in the past. i am hu i am. but some minor things need to be changed.hehe. and yea, aish. life lived for others is a life worth living. it might not always go as planned but in the end itll all be worth it. if not in this life then the next. hmmm, after reading the above, no wonder i love the lyrics to 'morning theft'.lol.hehe