Impacts 4 : Death (2 of 2)

And after we’ve died maybe we get to see our own funeral and see all the ppl there attending it. We see all the ppl weeping and crying over our death but unable to talk to them or to stop them from crying and weeping. Maybe we’ll still be in denial wishing we were still alive. Wishing we had been given more time. And wishing we were one of those ppl at the funeral who were still alive cos they get to go home whereas the deceased will have to face their maker. And you will KNOW that u’d reap what u sow. That would scare you more than anything else. Not knowing what our fate would be. Not knowing what would happen next. We humans worry and sometimes blow our minds from the time we finish an exam and wait for our result not knowing what we’re gonna get. But at the back of our minds we’d already be making plans for ‘IF’ we do fail or get lower than expected. Maybe do a resit, study more etc etc. but imagine how we’ll feel when we’ve died. There’d be no other plans or ANY way to take back what we’ve done or to do what we haven’t done. There would be no way out.

Then comes our grave. Its said of an enormous serpent that some of us would encounter much of it ive forgotten. And how our flesh would be eaten as if eaten alive slowly and how we’d feel every inch of it. We cant even stand the bite of an ant. And there we’d be slowly being eaten away over months and maybe over years in time. And we’d remain alone in our graves for years n years to come until the day of judgement as if being buried alive. But its said that the ones that would be saved from that would be the ones who regularly read the Holy Quran. Jes how many of us do? 10%? 5%? Maybe less? Its said that time would fly by for them and they wont feel the maggots/vatever eat our flesh away feeling the pain.

What then? Being raised from death on the day of judgement and having to wait in the sun with the sun hovering over our heads much closer than it usually is. Some buried halfway through the ground. That’s when all those women who had lost a baby would be greeted by them and given water or so I hear. Every generation of people going to their prophets and each one too afraid as they too have sinned. And when finally it comes to our prophet S.A.W. the process of being given our ‘results’ one by one with proof of everything that had really happened on that day. What would our fates be? Waiting in queue wishing that it SEEMED like an eternity when in fact it is an eternity. And even the queue being lenient on the good. As if every step of the way, ppl are divided into categories based on how they were before they died. The turning point being death. No more human rights/ child rights or any other stuff of the sort. No racism sexism etc. everyone’s fate solely on their own deeds. Interesting bit.

Even our prophet’s S.A.W associates some of them who had already been given the blessed tidings of heaven while they were still alive scared out of their wits unable to say which fate would be theirs. So what of us? What are we when compared to them? Yet we all somehow feel so safe. Makes u wonder what is really expected of u. and what is enough? The stories go on and on but I guess that should be enough for now. Hehe

Looking at it all from a different point of view makes it seem so surreal. We question ourselves whether if that’s whats really gonna happen. And we’ve heard so many different stories all revolving around some basic key points. Raises the question of what to believe and what not to. I guess that’s where our own beliefs come into play. Not what our parents have told us or what we’ve read from books n all. But how we feel abt it all inside. Each one to their own accord. Saying u believe in something and actually acting on it are totally diff as well. Each one to their own accord or beliefs. In the end we are all gonna die.

Impacts 4 : Death (1 of 2)

Note: Everything I wrote here are all stuff that ive herd while growing up or read from diff books skimmed through. How much truth they weigh.....we’ll never know.

A topic that always interested me. Something inevitable and believed by almost everyone…..all except the nutcases maybe. For the rest of us we all believe that one day it would be our turn. Doesn’t matter which race we’re from, which country or which religion. Sooner or later its gonna get us. The only difference is how soon. Its like ever since we are born….no wait…..ever since we are created as a single egg inside our mother’s womb, there’s a ticking time bomb inside of us. You never know when its gonna go off. Maybe even before ur born, when ur a kid, after ur married or maybe ull be UNLUCKY enough to see the ppl close to you die before you do of old age.

What interests me more is the time of death. What happens then? Most of us believe that the angel of death comes to us and takes out our soul. What then of those ppl who were killed instantly…say from a bullet to the head. Is the soul taken out at that instant as well? Or maybe its jes the body that dies and the soul is still inside. Maybe we are still able to witness everything like some ppl do even when in a coma, until the soul is taken out from the body. What would happen at that instance? What would be going thru our minds? Would we see flashes of our whole life pass before us like ppl say? Or do we realize we are really dying this time, panic and start crying. Maybe that’s what they meant by our life flashing by. Maybe its regret at that instance. Maybe we look back through all the good and bad we’ve done. Maybe its regret for all the things we wished we had done and all the stuff we wished we hadn’t. and what of all the ppl that’s done u wrong? Would u be cursing them? Or would u be too mesmerized by the angel of death or too petrified that u wont be able to think of anything else?

Its believed in our religion that even death is lenient on the good and painful on the wicked. Its said that when someone who is bound to go to heaven dies, most of the time he/she will have that feeling they are gonna die very soon. Some have made their final farewells to their loved ones on the day of their death going around from house to house wishing them all well but none of them have said that they feel like they will die soon or had such a talk with those loved one. We jes fear it when we see their actions. How are they given that assurance? How do they know when their time has drawn near? And im not speaking of those people who are on the verge of dying from an injury or so. The ones who seem as if they’ve got years to live on. And its said that their souls would be drawn out of them no smoother than milk being poured out of something. And that they would be filled with happiness and given the glad tidings of the wonders yet to come.

And of the wicked, its said that it would be like putting knives on a cloth close to each other and trying to pull the cloth out thru them. That’s how the soul would be pulled out. That’s how they would feel. And that its gonna take a long time for the soul to be completely pulled out of the body with him/her crying and screaming in agony. Filled with horror and pain. The worse u are, the longer it would take. The thought of the soul been shredded.

Redemption

"I read a book that was written in the 11th century. Man said there were 5 steps towards making amends. The first involved acknowledging what you did. The second involved remorse. The third involved making right with ur neighbour….like if u stole his chicken u’d have to get and bring him another. Only then will you be able to go to step 4, which was making your right with god. But it wasn’t up until step 5 that u can really get redeemed. It had to do with being in the same place, in the same situation. Then as it goes ur going to do something different."
-Levity-

Forrest Gump

The best damn actor in my opinion Tom Hanks in one of his best movies where his talent was put to good use. After years and years ive FINALLY managed to watch the movie. The first DVD i got happend to get stuck 1/3 of the way. the second one didnt even go 1/3. the third one i downloaded to find it had german audio. and the fourth one hit the jackpot. the movie was awesome. Tom Hank's acting of the character was unrivalled. but weirdly enough the more i watched, the more i jes hated the character of 'jenny'(Forrest's love of his ife)

Cos heres how the movies progressed in my mind. Forrest aint so bright u see. He's the kind of person nobody wants to have anything to do with. but nevertheless since he was a lil boy he had this friend jenny. he was in love with her all throughout the movie. she knows abt it but FOrrest jes wasnt mr.perfect. she knew she liked spending time with him and being with him. and even thought he was the best person she had met....not like the other scum. but everytime she'd jes walk out on him. she goes to performing nude infront of audiences, sleeping around with ppl, using drugs u name it. and all through it all, Forrest was the only one she could rely on, the one who came to save her sorry arse. But everytime she's come back to him after a fall and pretty soon be walking away again cos he still aint mr.perfect. he's jes too darn stupid and slow in the head for her.

One time she comes back to him, he asks her to marry him.
Forrest: "Will u marry me? I'd make a good husband"
Jenny: "U would forrest......"
Forrest: "...But u wont marry me"
Jenny: "u dont wanna marry me"
Forrest: "Why dont u love me jenny?...Im not a smart man, but i know what love is"
He then walks out and stands there and Jenny jes continues on her way and moves out of sight. That night she comes into his room, get into bed with him, says she loves him, has sex and leaves in the morning without a word.

Over THREE years later by which time she has now got a baby whose father is Forrest sends him a letter asking him to meet her. He goes to her and she apologises and introduces him to his son whom he didnt even know existed till that moment. Then he tells him that she has got a disease which would lead to her death soon and asks Forrest to marry her. She didnt even bother calling him up when she got pregnant or even when she gave birth. but the minute she discovered that she had a diesease which the doctors wont be able to cure her out of, she calls him up so that he would take care of his son when she has died. its sad. Even that one girl who treated him like a normal person too couldnt accept him or love him jes cos he lacked something. Even when he was the only one who had stood by her through all her mess ups and accepted her even after all she had done. atleast something good came out of it all. He got a son and that too to the woman he was in love with his whole life. yep, ive spoilt the ending for u but nevertheless this is a movie worth watching......if u havent watched it already, which almost everyone has probly watched by now. hehe

"So my friend,she used THAT tactic on u huh?"

An incident that happened to a friend of mine. this must be the third such incident ive heard that was like this. it was jes weird and funny at the same time. and it seems to happen for both the sex as well. not EXACTLY as this one but im sure u get my point.

Putting it simple girl n boy get together and live happily. no serious probs or anything. suddenly out of nowhere girl wants to break up with guy. makes up all sorts of stuff n dump him. he finds out that he was dumped for another guy and there were cheating involved. he changes. and that part of him that he's been resisting and keeping at bay breaks loose and he goes all haywire doing things thats jes not himself. all cos of his recent events and losing faith in some certain things which he used to believe in. girl sees the change and starts critisizing it with mainly the exact words "i dont know him anymore" and "Who the hell are you now" with an annoyed face. so im telling the dude that when she asked that Q u shudve said "im the guy whom u broke up with after making out with that other guy. n yea, its not a secret like u thought it was gonna be. i KNOW!" or sumthing like that instead of jes walking away without saying anything afraid ur gonna hurt her feelings n so. and dont go feeling guilty jes cos she said that. She was the reason u flipped in the first place.

Then theres gonna be talk of how bad a person the guy is NOW by that girl to her friends and all the other guys she dates afterwards. hehe. its somewhat funny i tell u. and it actually happens for both sexes. and i think this is the fourth time. its like one of those incidents that is waiting to be chosen by someone to be played out accordingly. Kinda like "what? u wanna make out with that hot chick but u have a gf? then jes use THAT method. the one where u do this n that n this. works like a charm i tell u".

A Story

Its a story someone whom i respect alot once told me. i think it was abt a year back. jes got reminded of it and thought of sharing.

Seems this was sumthing that really happened. it was abt a certain boy who always hung around with his friends. while his friends were boozing , partying and getting layed seems this guy always distanced himself from those stuff. they hung out alot but he'd give rain checks whenever he found out if his friends were going for those purposes. someone who prayed alot and did the works.

Until one day his friends tricked him into going with them to have some fun. and seems that they wanted to pop his cherry and had talked with one of the girls abt it. so they lock this guy up in a room with the girl and went away. im sure most of you would know the intoxicating effect of a woman who wants to get laid badly. hehe. meaning he gave in. after all those years of holding back he finally thought this would be a one time thing and gave into it. Problem was....he had a heart attack and died. the girl was too drunk and so he wasnt found to be dead till the next morning when his friends came to let him out

And heres the tricky bit. its said in our religion that....well...i dont remember the exact words but it goes something like this. "Ziney kuraa meehaa ziney kuraa hindhu eynayakee moomineh nooney" and so on for the rest of the sins. which translates into(dont mind my translation, it aint so good :P) "The fornicator while fornicating isnt a 'muh min'". so its said among those ppl knowledged in islam that when he fornicates/steals/vatever all the good that he has done is taken away from him. that it doesnt reside in him during his betraying acts and is once again restored to him after its all over and when he's done with it. Meaning that when the guy died he was in such a state that he cant carry forward any of those good deeds he did. they had all been taken away from him. all those years gone to waste. he might as well as have done all those stuff that he restricted himself for doing.

Some might think of this as a load of crap, some might think its jes plain unfair while others might actually make something out of this story. each to their own accord right? whatever it may be im sure theres something that everyone can agree on. we'll never know when we're gonna die. even if someone has cancer even he wont know when he'll die. he might not even die in the lifespan the doctor said he would. Even if he did, he wont know on which day or time. so better be prepared for that which would undoubtedly come to face us one day....be it tomorrow or even years from now.

Foggiest morning ever

Woke up to go to uni, did all the necessary stuff and when i stepped outside there it was. FOG! and it wasnt jes fog. i felt like i was in a movie or sumthing where ur surrounded by thick fog that u cant even see beyond a certain distance. i could see like 15feet infront and then slowly it faded away to the point where i couldnt see anything beyond 20feet.

It was a weird feeling i tell u....walking through that. it was like there was a 20feet radius surrounding ur body which was visible and remained that way as u kept moving forward. and ppl jes popping into ur view jes like that. well, atleast i cud see the traffic lights from a distance. and it was damn cold. could clearly see the smoke coming out of my mouth everytime i exhaled. and to think its probably gonna get worse in mid winter. The above pic of the web is something i saw along the way.