Time to change back into who we are again.

Another ramadan is over and eid is here again. time for all those lousy messages which makes u feel like ur reading through a couple of forward mails. Please try something new or think up of something instead of forwarding last years ones. and i guess its time for people to show their true colours once again.

Overall, i guess it was an ok ramadan, though i do have my regrets. didnt feel like ramadan. maybe cos i was too busy to actually feel hungry. uni from mornin 9 till 5 and then breakin fast at 5:45. doesnt leave much time to think "hey, i havent eaten anything all day". and as far as the religious bits are concerned i must say i aint proud of myself at all this year. no excuses either. but theres nothin like waking up early morning on Eid and having that cup of coffee after takin that 30day break. Sigh. im actually looking forward to it. and i guess Eid wont be like eid at all this year as its in the middle of the weekdays and we'd be at uni the whole day. oh well, what to do. but then again, even if we were in male' we'd be stuffing ourselves the whole day.hehe. but i must say that im gonna miss those old songs they show on tv each year. those are some good songs.anyways, jes wanted to wish everyone a happy Eid and hope u got the most out of this year's ramadan unlike me.anyone up for the "haroadha" this year?

Lailathul Qadhr

Something that ive been wondering about for a few years now but never really talked about until now. we all have heard and know about "lailathul Qadhr" right? the night thats said to be more blessed than a 1000months. the night that the Holy Quran was blessed upon the human race. the night where angels including Gabriel would descend down to the Earth. Its this very special night that comes during the last 10days of ramadan said to be one of the odd nights. so here's my question.

For example lets imagine that tonight is "lailathul Qadhr" as most ppl seem to say so (27th night). if its night time at any one point on the earth, it will be daytime in another, afternoon , evening and even dawn in some parts of the world. so how can that be? so is "lailathul Qadhr" a 24hour time period? but then why do we refer to it as a NIGHT? In response some ppl would surely say that it would be the 27th night in each of these places on the globe. but then again while the 1st of september is the first of ramadan for some countries, other countries are experiencing through falakee ilm that its the 2nd or maybe the last day of the previous month. so doesnt this mean that the 27th of ramadan wouldnt coincide even on the same day to most of the countries?

By all means im not trying to belittle it, but more trying to understand it. so can anyone shed some light onto this topic. because the problem with most ppl nowadays is that they dont question stuff about our religion like they should. i mean they should discuss it and try to reason with it. because if they have confidence in their beliefs, they shouldnt be afraid of it feeling like ur being a "munaafigu" if ur questioning or inquiring about anything in our religion. so please would someone care to shed some light on this topic?

The Weirdest and most Terrifying experience

Happened last night. was up to eat 'haaru' and my usual midnight chat. then after a phone conv tried to get some sleep before i had to wake up again in about 3hrs time. my room has a sliding door meaning it cant be locked. and the door is about 3feet from the bed. and i always turn off all the lights leaving jes the laptop light which too i keep tured around in the other direction.

You know that feeling you get when you know someone is outside your door? that moment right before someone would open the door. i had closed my eyes for about 5seconds when i had that feeling. and instantly i felt this strange feeling all over my body. its hard to describe as its never happened before in my life. but here goes. it felt like every inch of my body was being pressed down by this force. kind of like the water pressure that presses u inwards when u dive deep down. similar to that but on a much larger scale. i couldnt move at all. it was followed by the sound of the door sliding open. but like i said before i couldnt move a muscle. the first thing that crossed my mind was "im dying!". just like that. it really felt like it. i tried to open my eyes to no avail. i didnt even know if i was breathing. but i was certain that someone or something came in through the door and was probably standing next to me. i was scared shitless. i didnt wanna die.

after abt 2 seconds or so of struggling to move a muscle i was able to open my eyes....just a bit though. it was dark and instantly that force which had me pressed down vanished jes like that. but i couldnt keep my eyes open for long and the second my eyes closed that feeling came back again. i felt helpless and was ready to scream out by now. i wanted to run away, as far away as i could. thats when i heard a voice say "im coming for you" followed by a soft laugh. then i heard the door sliding again, probably closing this time and just like that the feeling of constriction disappeared and i was able to move again. i jumped up out of bed and sat there not knowing what to do or even what to think. i was trying to convince myself that it was only a dream.i wasnt sweating. my heard wasnt racing. infact i didnt feel anything except fear. and its easy to know what a dream is the minute you wake up from it. and that was no dream. lots of different and rather weird explanations raced through my head.

i wasnt gonna tell anyone about it. it didnt make sense even to me. and the obvious explanation anyone would give is "it was just a dream" or "it was all in your head". nevertheless i thought id write about it in a post atleast to remind myself what had happened before i soon forgot about it.

P.S- there are some bits and pieces ive intentionally left out

Storm and Fire

One of my favourite music pieces. Its without the vocals though. heres a link to one with the voalcs(storm and fire). Its "A Song of Storm and Fire" from the anime series "Tsubasa Chronicles". Enjoy! :)

Kidnapped to be raped and then murdered

You know how such stuff as lying and cheating and stealing something is considered as really bad stuff to us. like if we know someone who does or has done it, it automatically changes our view of the person(to most of us anyway). and then this thought goes through our heads "what the hell is wrong with him/her? how could he/she even think of doing that?". thats a bad person for you right there. one you'd take caution from that point on.

I went to see a doc the other day and while waiting, i opened up this magazine. There was a topic which read "the beast of Germany"(dont quite remember the country name). so i skipped to that page and read an interview of a 20yr old girl who had testified against an individual. it was her story of the worst time of her life.

She had testified against someone who was an unemployed father(of someone else ofcourse). this guy had kidnapped her off the streets when she was 12years old(yep, this report was made a couple of years after the incident). she was kept in a small dark basement with a chain around her neck. the guy would occasionally bring her out of there to his bedroom only to rape and torture her. he made her believe that he had kidnapped her for a ransom but her parents didnt want her back. he even allowed her to write to her mom, only to not send those letters and then come tell her that her mom never replies. apparently this man had done the same with THREE other girls and when he was done with them, he killed them all. he was involved with selling off small kids as well as making torture movies etc with kids in em.

This got me thinking(never a good thing). we live in a world where we know all of this happens and even worse. yet we dont think much of it. maybe cos it hasnt happened to someone close. but then again it has happened to a few of us. what is it that drives a person to go to this extent? i mean here we are complaining about lies and cheating and small time stealing while stuff similar to these are happening around us even in male'. its somewhat understandable what drives a person to steal and such. but child abusing? what does the person hope to achieve from that? especially in this age of prostitution and such.

An uncle of mine was one day talking with an inmate who had just been released from prison. they were talking about those child abusers that were put away in prisons. how all the other prisoners always give them a hard time(they deserve it if you ask me). and seems this guy went and spoke with one of them asking him the same question i asked previously. "Why do you do it? what drives you to it? is it because your wife doesnt have sex with you? or is it because you dont enjoy it that much?". and the guy replies saying it wasnt such a reason. that his sex life with his wife or so is awesome. and that he honestly had no idea as to WHY he did what he did. that he couldnt even explain it himself. seems he's even asked himself that question several times but he just couldnt figure it out. so what is it that drives these people to do it? and i wont be surprised if one day people would start calling that too a disease or a part of those people like they now do with homosexuals and so n so.

Time to temporarily stop drinking, having sex and remember that ur a muslim.

well, its here again. the month where muslims get reminded to which religion they belong to. time to temporarily stop all the drinking, all the sex and TRY to fast. well, this is the truth of most muslims now aint it? not a single prayer the whole of the year and as soon as ramadan arrives its time to START. i guess its atleast better that it DOES happen for one month a year than not happening at all. and ofcourse we DO encounter those sneaky bastards who claim to be fasting but the minute everyone is out of sight consumes some food item. i guess its more common in the islands where they can actually go in groups to the woods with a loaf of break and some canned tuna. *whistle whislte* hehe.

something we witness each year during ramadan. fist 10days, mosques overloaded. second 10days, ppl reduced by half and final 10days a 50% increase. wonder if we're gonna witness the same thing this time.

And jes imagine all those guys who'se only been married for a few months or years. after breaking the fast they will have to apparently go to 'sleep' since they didnt sleep the previous night or so what they say. heheh. come on ppl, we know what its abt, no need for all those xcuses jes go for it. ;) uve waited a whole day anyway.

Mustnt forget. the parteys are once again at it to show that ramadan is the best month for theft. out of the 12months in each year, it now seems that ramadan is the month where the biggest robberies are happening. best month for prayers as well as the best month for theft :). wont be surprised if those guys fast and pray as well. lol. i guess maldives surely has upheld the saying "monkey see, monkey do" to a new level when it comes to religion.

But something that i didnt expect to see here. we've got a small mosque here where all the diff muslims(even if i say all its just about 40ppl) from different countries gather for friday prayers. thats when the mosque would be full(yea, small mosque). but when ramadan started the mosque is full every night for 'tharaaveeh' prayers. thats about at 20:15 by which time its freezing cold outside. but still all these ppl make it there. that sure was a surprise. so i guess its not all hopeless. hope it lasts till the end of ramadan.

"At night when its all dark, even if only one candle is burning it seems so bright and seems like so much around it is lit". ill leave the interpretation to you.