*closes eyes and drifts away*

Terrace, friends, live music, singing, jokes, maldivian commercials, ancient songs, memorable quotes and mimics, coffee, pancakes, smokes, sandwiches. and not to forget the surprise filled 'get busy'. caught me by surprise.
Sigh. so much fun after a long time. that was goooooood. :)
*closes eyes and drifts away*

Maybe its not too short afterall

i used to always think and shout at ppl when they sleep over 10hrs a day *looks at a certain someone*. i'll complain that if ur sleeping 12hrs a day, thats like half the day. meaning if our life span is like 70years, before we are 10years old we are too young and after 60 we are old. so cutting that part off ,out of the 50yrs inbetween, thats like being awake for 25years. hmmmm. used to seem as such a short time 25 years. maybe its not that short. afterall, its 25 whole years. so much can be done during that time. *wonders*. yep, i dont make sense :)

numbers

6...10...12...(blank)
Hmmmmmm (waits to think abt it)
Nahhhhhh. so what
and to those 3
miadhu luffy falhaalee
just 20 in it
everything else just foreign currency
but still
Yayyyyyyy!!!
Can beat 12 with it right?

Ho hum

hmmmmm, u find out something about urself that u really dont wanna know abt. but its inevitable....or so they say. who knows. they might be wrong...or so i keep telling myself.... or so i keep hoping. dont wanna tell my parents. they'll find out eventually anyway by which time its all gonna make sense to them. wonder how they'll react. thats gonna be the turning point i guess. when others will start to know abt it too thru them. first will come the relatives and then my friends.wonder how they'll react. probly same as my parents. its gonna be the same steps with everyone. hmmmmm. sounds boring but inevitable. weird part is i should be panicking but im not. oh well. i guess ill wait till i go to malay and then i can panic after that. dont wanna panic all for nothing.

Its no big deal ppl. Really.

Ive started again. and that too after over 3years. maybe 4.ive lost count. you guys shouldve seen the look on aesha's face when she saw. her eyes were wide open and she had her mouth covered with both hands. i think she was staring at me like that for like 2mins. was it that big a shock? i wonder what was going thru her mind those two mins.

But it had called on for a celebration it seemed. and before we knew it i had bought drinks for everyone...same flavour milkshakes of all things...with a cherry on top. lol. it was supposed to be coffee but we all decided what the hell, we'll all have milkshakes just for the sake of it.

For starters i had six. i think its more than enough after 3yrs. well....actually we ran out.heheh. lol. and it kinda gave this small relief with the first one. weird but it did. and then everyone started bugging me as to why ive started again.

Heres a little conversation that happened between a friend and me when she found out about it. more like when i told her about it

*She:vat the fish arraa? u of all ppl??? vat is the world coming to.. *faint* and ur laughing abt it all? oh dear..wat made u start again huh?
*Me:I blame it all on depression and being fuckd up. :) dont ask the reasons for those. too many plus dont wana talk abt it with ne1. even aesha, i-kko and shan tried for 2hrs last night. Neways, i feel a teeny weeny bit better nw...i think.
*She:Ah ok. but i definitely know one reason..nyway, dnt overdo it o nythn...tc
*Me:Hehe.yea i guess u do. ekanves ehaa koosaniveemaey. oh well, and vats overdoing it? geting high on pot?
*She:.........................
*Me:..........................
*She:oh dear...ure a goner now then...much disappointment.
*Me: Nobody can live their life without disappointing others atleast once in a while. we've all gone thru dat. so have u. :) thats called being human. *i rest my case*
*She:yea yea..n all these time i was thinking u were d sensible n wise one amongst us..well..now i realise ur human too.one of us.
*Me:Me? Sensible? Wise? OMG! Im flattered. But if u had been thinking that then im disappointed that all it tuk was a ....... to change that. N tell me sumthing. being all u say i WAS, where has that got me? Usualy ppl wud diss others by pointing out their bad points. with me it wud be made up stuff, senseless stuff and taking the gud points and making it out as bad points. Nothing is ever good enough. even if it goes to the point they cant show WHY its not gud enuf................... So being human aint a bad thing. plus ive always been human :)

Now i luk at that conversation and i think to myself. who is that guy? is that me? and my justification being 'depressed' and 'fucked up'??? ooookkkkk. i need to go to malay fast.

Virgin Trade (2/2)..continued..

Ive had a few conversations with some of these prostitutes and their stories are somewhat different. There was this one girl who said that her father died at an early age and she had to support her family which is impossible with the little money they get with an honest hardworking job. So in the end she tells her family and friends that she’s going to the next island to work as a waitress or such and goes to the ships and clubs for prostitution. That way she gets to send enough money back home and still buy stuff she wanted for herself.

But as the years go by the demand for each of these girls grow lesser. If ur a virgin or have just started prostitution u might even get around $100 everytime u have sex. But in just two years or three, the ppl can tell the difference in them and before you know it the price has gone down to even $20per day.

And there’s this other girl who’s a wife with two children. But still she comes for that same work. She says that when she’s having sex she just closes her eyes and bears through it all thinking about her children and their well being. Of all the things she can do for them with the money she gets. She even calls them and her husband almost every night on the mobile. She says that its not because she doesn’t love her husband. She does it BECAUSE she loves her husband and children that much. So much that she is willing to sleep around so that her children could get a good life and to make sure that they DONT have to resolve to prostitution like her. So that they could have a good education and in time a decent job which would pay lots of money.

There are even some prostitutes whose husbands are the ones who actually makes them go into prostitution so that they could have more money. Or in other cases it’s the mother who sends her daughters to sleep around.

There’s this interview in the documentary i watched about a girl complaining that their ‘mammaasaa’ sometimes forces them to have sex even during their periods. So they sometimes put a sponge inside to stop the bleeding. And im telling you, its true. Ive heard the same complains as well. Some of these girls have no choice at all. And its hard to believe that some of them even introduce their younger sisters and friends into the same work.

Few lines from the documentary:
this is what a club owner had to say about prostitution. i guess it was a justification to himself. what is prostitution? the housewife who stays at home having sex with the husband waiting for the monthly check is the same thing according to him. the only difference is that its legal. oh well, each one to their own way of thinking i guess.

Here’s what I find the funniest about it all. Some stupid ass Maldivians actually fall in LUURRVVE with the prostitutes. They’ll spend like $100 per day on a certain girl whom he’ll call everytime he comes to Thailand. And most of the time he’ll even give about $200-300 when the ship is about to leave so that she could take care of herself when he isn’t there in Thailand. These guys believe the girls when they say that they don’t sleep around and that this guy is the only one they have sex with. There has been fights on the ship between Maldivians where one fellow Maldivian would hit on that certain girl who has already been TAKEN. Most of the time it’s the girl who hits on the other crew members when her MAN is at duty. So some guys would lock up the prostitutes in their rooms before going to duty. The same thing happens even between the prostitutes. There have been cat fights when a fellow prostitute sleeps with another’s MAN. Lol. These guys who are in LUURRVVE even cry when they finally have to depart with their love…the prostitute. When the ship has left and is sailing away from Thailand u can sometimes see these love filled guys sitting on the ‘joali’ facing towards Thailand at sunset with tears forming in their eyes. They don’t even stop calling them when they are in back in male’.

And then I see this same behaviour back in the Maldives between Maldivian men and Maldivian women. But this time the guys are sleeping around and the girls just refuse to believe it. It doesn’t matter how many of her friends or relatives tells her. They’ll still believe in the guy. Since she is in LUURRVE with the guy. They’ll keep on playing the fool and humping the bf until she is finally provided with pictures or videos of her beloved ‘love of her life’ having another LOVE with whom he shares his love with, through his penis. But some girls continue to live in denial even after that saying that they are giving the guy a second chance to redeem himself and to realize the truth which is…..coming back to her and loving ONLY her. And the most common line used by these women are “unlike you my friends, I believe in my boyfriend. I LOVE him moe than anybody else. I wont believe any news that flies around until ive seen it with my own eyes. I TRUST in my bf that much. You should try doing the same with yours and mind your own damn business”. And if it’s a case where she ends up giving the guy a second or twenty secondth chance , she TRIES to justify it by saying “you possibly wont understand my feelings and the love we both have for each other”.i don’t think anyone would understand that. Baaka baaka BAAAAKA! (ive strayed off topic again.oh well. Not the first time and definitely aint gnna be the last time)

This song suits the country Maldives so well.
Minaa mina shimaavaa (the islands in the south)
Aththaka hee (are warm)
Paina purupuru (paina purupuru)
Aththaa pokapoka (their heads get really hot)
Agho BAAAAAAAKAAAAAAA!!!! (and they’re all IDIOTS!)

Virgin Trade(1/2)

Ive had the documentary ‘Virgin Trade’ for some time now. its about the prostitutes in thailand. But finally last night I watched it and just felt like writing about it. Been a long time since ive really wanted to write about something. Please don’t mind the mistakes. Cant bother correcting em all and to make sure its in CORRECT ENGLISH. and it was too damn looong. ekamakuves here goes.

Ive witnessed some of the stuff that’s mentioned in it. Used to work on a ship as a deck officer and our ship used to go to Thailand once every 3months or so. Let me just tell you how the ppl on our ship are like. Most of them are really hard working, married and a father of 2-3kids and some quite religious.

When the ship sets sail towards Thailand, ull see that most of them would shave off their beards and moustaches and the smell of perfume will surround them. By the time the pilot boards the vessel, u can see that most of the crew will be near the gangway(the place for boarding the ship). A small vessel or two can be seen near our ship filled with women in shorts and tops coated in makeup. The minute the anchor is dropped, the gangway will be lowered and all the women/prostitutes would start boarding the ship. All the crew that’s assembled at the gangway would each take a girl of their liking and quickly take her to their rooms. Its like the ppl who come first gets to pick the best ones. Some start shagging right away while others just hang out with them as if they are with their wives the whole day.

The rates for these sex machines differ from each prostitute. The higher the demand for a certain girl, the higher her price(usually determined from how far away she is from having lost her virginity). For ‘short-time’(she just has sex with u and the min ur done, that’s the end of ur contract with her) the price ranges from US$15-20. BJs and so for $10.sometimes even for $5. If ur taking her for the whole day its usually $25-30 during which time she’ll be just like ur wife. She’ll cook for you, clean ur room and even iron ur clothes. And if ur lucky or good in bed you may even get to have sex with her for 3-4times a day. So usually ppl take them for the whole day. People rarely take them for the whole trip since girls will be boarding the ship everyday and you might come across someone whom you like better.

Usually there will be a group specified for each ship. There will be a ‘mammaasaa’(a woman boss) incharge of that certain group of girls. They all work together. Mammaasaa looks after them and their meals. She’ll even market the girls by talking with the ship’s crew. The girls have to pay her half of what they get. But then there are solo workers who come aboard by mini launches who feed themselves from what the mammaasaa group cooks. Some of the crew would pay the girls AND even get them food to eat.

Its like this. Most of the crew would pray regularly, do sunnah prayers, give good advice ,engage themselves in religious talks and as soon as they are in Thailand they’ll regularly drink alcohol and have sex. U’ll be surprised as to how much a person changes when they are in Thailand and when they are out. That’s the reason why I always say that I’d believe in the faith of a Maldivian only AFTER ive seen how they are when they are outside Maldives. When they actually DO have a free ticket to commit all the sins they can without their friends and family knowing about it. Ive met so many ppl who are all talk but becomes surprisingly weak when they come face to face with these things.

There are so many crew who are determined not to have sex and will keep on telling just how much money they NEED to stop wasting money etc etc. but the minute a girl approaches them, they give in. and as soon as we depart Thailand they’ll go back to complaining just how much money they’ve wasted. The funny part is none of their wives or family knows about this. Its like all those women and relatives trust them so much. Ive even met some of the wives and relatives and when the topic of Thailand comes up they would all believe that their husbands would be loyal to them also believing that most of the other crew aren’t loyal to their wives.

Its not so hard for me to believe. I mean I can see just how much they change. These are all good people who love and treat their family so well. There are ppl who actually save for three months from all the extra money they get while sending their full basic salary home to their wives just so that they could have sex in Thailand. Plus they buy lots of sound systems etc from Thailand and take it all back and sell for twice the actual price. This way they get to cover for the wasted money AND sometimes even get a profit out of the trip. And their wives cant even tell the difference since there aren’t any problems with their husbands or cases where the husband starts neglecting the wife once he has started having sex with the prostitutes when he is in Thailand. As if there is this whole different person living inside everyone who doesn’t let the wife and kids see that side. As if they’ve accepted the fact that they cant stop cheating on their wives and decided to live these two separate lives.

Some of the crew would go to land to party. They’d go to disco’s and pick up 18year old hot college girls, have sex with them and then come back to the ship. Sometimes they even bring some of the girls back to he ship for the night.Since its easy money these college girls just sleeps around and live a wealthy life without their parents finding out

Some ppl blame the commercial world for all this. Afterall it’s the age of laptops, computers, mobile phones etc. and all these girls are craving so much to have stuff of their own which their parents are unfortunately unable to afford. Then the foreigners pop up with all their cash and offers to pay them their parent’s monthly salary in just one night. Most of these foreigners are just average ppl in their countries but feels like kings and movie stars once they arrive in Thailand.

Baaka!

Minaa minaa shimaavaa
Aththaka hee
Paina purupuru
Aththaka pokapoka
Agho BAAAKAAAAAAAAA....

flaws?

I asked you silently to count my flaws. 1...2...3..so i could tear myself apart and feel a little less perfect with your arms around me. Maybe then i could tell you that my tears are not as useless as they are now. Im addicted to the way you move and watching your eyes drift close just before we kiss. The passion in your voice when you whisper i love you through heavy breathing, makes my heart skip a beat or two.

Post for Maa

Dedicated to Maa from Anas (u knw who im talking about). The event was just priceless and i just couldnt resist. lol. hggh. and when i heard the news this was the first thing that popped into my head. enjoy! Well...we're having the laugh of a lifetime over it. hehe. :D

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you, please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him just because you can.

Your beauty is beyond compare
With flaming locks of auburn hair
With ivory skin
And eyes of emerald green

Your smile is like a breath of spring
Your voice is soft like summer rain
I cannot compete with you, Jolene
he talks about you in his sleep
And there is nothing I can do to keep
From crying when he calls your name, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can

Now I can easily understand
How you can easily take my man
But you don't know what he means to me, Jolene

Well you could have your choice of men
But I could never love again
He's the only one for me, Jolene

And I had to have this talk with you
My happiness depends on you
And whatever you decide to do, Jolene

Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
I'm begging of you please don't take my man
Jolene, Jolene, Jolene, Jolene
Please don't take him even though you can
-Dolly Parton-

Impacts :1: Acceptance

My friends and i were talking at a coffee about the advice we have heard from someone that had made a huge impact on our life or the way we thought. i couldnt think up of anything that night. but heres what i came up later on. i thought i'd write them all down as they came to mind from all the different ppl that had given advice with a mixture of my own put in it.hehe. i have to give them credit which made me think about those stuff in the first place right?

If u stand out on the road and look carefully at a 100 ppl walking past u, U'll find something wrong with each and every one of them. if it be their hairstyle, the clothes they are wearing, the face, the necklaces, earings, handbands or even their walking style or their physique. ull find something odd about them. its not a problem with them. its a problem with YOU! u cant accept the different lifestyles that surround u. u cant accept them for whom they have chosen to be. everyone is different in their own way. they dont have to like the things you do and they dont have to react like u would. there is no perfect right answer. but then again its no big surprise why we react like that. when we stand infront of a mirror we are unable to accept even how we look. too fat, too slim, scars, big nose etc etc. we are even unable to accept how we look.then how can we accept the things and ppl around us.

Ur going to be travelling to alot of countries and getting to meet alot of different ppl. u need to accept the fact that they wont think like u. we've got musims, christians, atheists etc living in this world. ppl who has such a huge difference to us in their views and opinions about stuff. we need to atleast accept the ppl we live with in this little country of ours. never let ur anger overwhelm u and never let those ppl around u influence you and change who you are and what u believe in. everyone knows when they are faced with a situation, what the right and wrong choices are.its just a question of which one ur going to take or which different lifestyles or ways u wanna follow.

"To every tree there are roots,To see these is to believe, Have faith, hope is but a branch. See with the eyes of truth,Accept me for who I am.

It is easy to speak the words.But words are so much harder to prove, Flash light on the shadows of truth.See my roots with eyes of belief, Only then will I finally shine through.

Struggling, words will crumble it all. Profess with more than this, Help me not to fall away.See me for who I am. Unmask the roots of my tree....and
Grasp every cell of me with acceptance."
-Nagi-

what would u do?

Was reading thru some of the old mail ive got which i havent yet come up to deleting and it got me thinking(yea, not good at all). U know those friends of urs with whom u have disagreements n so n so. instead of staying quiet and letting him learn the hard way u go and tell it to his face and explain everything to him honestly, even if its something he doesnt wanna hear. even if ur risking ur friendship by telling him. so u tell him. he gives u a lecture of ur life saying that ur an SOB etc etc. that its none of ur business. in short he forgets everything that has happened between u two, forgets everything uve done for him and just starts calling you filth and so many other things which he never should say.

After a few days or so he finds out that everything u said was true. that u were just doing the right thing since he was ur friend and cos u didnt want him to get hurt or so. now this is where the whole point of this post comes. what does he do?
a)apologise to u for not listening back then and for all the filth he screamed at u
b)pretend nothing ever happened
c)continue not talking to u even after he realises the truth

what would u do? and how would u react if this happened between u n a friend? what does it say about someone if he doesnt pick optin (a)?

Asterix continued

Finally got some answers to a previous post on Asterix. every name of the characters in the comics have a significant meaning which relates to their characters. Note the names mentioned in that post. so about Asterix and Obelix. So it obviously cant be the "/" for obelix and "*" for asterix. SO i guess Obelix has something to do with obesity obviously. but maybe asterix does have a meaning from the "*". a friend of mine was explaining it the other day. since the "*" is usually used to highlight important points or so and since asterix in the comic is the key character. And cos he is the CENTRE of the whole comic. It sounds like a just reason. doesnt it?

F**kin Hell! :s

Thia happened t a friend of mine who told us a few days back. We were laughing our arses off when we heard it from him. so wanted to share it with the rest of u.

The story began when we were talking about little boys and how they would have a dream about having a leak and moments later wake up to find that theyve peeid in their pants. And then we were talking about how we arent aware of whats going on when we wake up in the middle of the night and go to have a leak.
So my friend told us two events that happened to him.

ONE: He was half asleep and had to go pee. so he was presumably in the toilet. but when he came to, there he was on the first floor balcony peeing down to the ground floor. thank god nobody was down there. and his house is constructed in a way that any person passing by on the street would clearly see him. just imagine. ur walking down the street. u hear this small splashing sound as if a tap has been turned on. u turn around to face that house and see a guy on the balcony of the first floor facing u, wth his zipper down, his thingy out at u and having a leak with his eyes closed. lol. hggh.

TWO:He went to bed wearing a black tight. And just like above he woke up having the need to have a leak. half asleep, he made his way to the toilet(the real one this time), pulled down his zipper. And to his astonishment his thingy didnt come out. it had vanished. F**kin HELL!!!!! :S. it was gone. his Pee Pee had disappeared. ETERNAL CONSEQUENCES. soon he started panicking and started feeling around. the guy had forgotten that he was wearing a black tight. Just imagine the shock he would get being halfasleep n all. lol. hehehe.

BBQ

Hmmmm, dunno if anyone else has already written abt it or not. havent come to visit the others yet. so m just gonna write what happend before the bbq and mayyyybe a bit of it as well. We had a Bloggers BBQ last thursday night. lets see how it all began and the stuff that happened on my end. this was kinda a last min thing.

I msged all the bloggers who's numbers i had and told em all of the bbq and everyone said they'd come.i was planning on making a double bbq. for bloggers from 8-11 and afterwards my usual crowd from 11 till dawn. so the night b4 the bbq maree n i made a list of all the ppl coming over. and then all the stuff that would be needed with the expenses. muawwaz joined in later on.

Later on when they left muawwaz was incharge of bringing the drinks and the paper plates. so when they left my usual crowd and i went to get the grill, charcoal and to buy the chicken(3). we had yet to buy the fish

I had office early morning at 7:30. so i woke up at 6:00 and went to the market to buy the fish. yes ppl, i woke up at 6. and to think that i slept around 2. no wonder shweet thought i looked grumpy when she first came over.it was pretty cheap that early in the morning. u know that HUGE fish that was cut in half so that it could fit the grill? it cost Rf30. yep. so bought two of em and a smaller one as well.

Spent the whole morning at the office and went back to shopping the minute i finished. afterall we needed to get so much more. lycan came over in the evening(dj kanthakashaa ekee) and he brought the rented chairs with him when he came. we had to drag em all up to the terrace which was the NINTH floor. then when muawwaz came him n lycan went to get the finished roshi, all 150 of em. but we DID manage to take all the stuff to the terrace and get ready by the time everyone came.

Maree was very handy putting the paste n chilli on the fish. ;) hehehe. lol. that was a sight. varah obi ingey. It was a bit salty butnevertheless delicious. oh yea, and this is for u *wacks maree with a rotten fish*. thats for making me smell ur hand and actually wiping it on my face :p. this aint over yet. ill get u for that *warning warning*.

SO neways when everyone arrived we played some january ,february, march sumthin game which bulhaa proposed...AND won. but i got the runner up. yayyyy!! u just had experience with u. thats the only reason why u won :p. yumma and bulhaa even had a ride on the small cars we had up on the terrace(cars for 6yrs and below :p). what next? oh yea, a small show from shan and then lava baazee out of which our team won ofcourse. yes we did, yes we did. we even sang ur songs for u :p. ekamaku shweet dho. she was unstoppable at lavabaazee. even me n shaan were baffled. thank god she was on our team. whew!

the time went too fast and soon half of the crowd had to go. so we all ate and they left. half of em ofcourse. hehe. dunno what happened next. just about 5mins after they left the rest of us(11) were dancing to our old 'decibel' song. we made em dance shaan. we made em dance.hehehe. *evil smile*. varah salhi ingey. everyone danced.thank god there wasnt en earthquake. whew! we danced for atleast about half an hr or so.heheh. even aesha danced. and u were good at it. got the pics to prove it. dont worry. it aint leaking.hehe.

Musnt finish without telling who and who came dho. lets see. ill try to put em in order of arriving. lycan, muawwaz, whity, maree, yaitte, shweet, .mini, bulhaa, yumma, maail, thoamy, tinkerbell, aesha, shaan, starky, velvy, denekasrof, i-kko. hmmmm, i guess thats it. did i miss anyone? and so sorry maa and shanoo couldnt make it.u guys were missed. thanx all for coming. hope u had fun.and we did have some very shy ppl. hope it goes away next time. ;) and a very special thanx for muawwaz, starky and lycan. and if farey is reading this to him too. see u all next time

Happy New Year

Well, since almost every single one is writing a post about new year. so might as well as post one myself. Heres a new year card i got from maree. Thanx. varah salhi. didnt think when u drew it that it would turn out like this after uve done with it. hehe.

lets see, what did i do that night. at around 7 at night thought we'd do atleast something to celebrate new years night rather than sleep it off.hehe. so i msged some friends to see who was available(since most of em wouldve already made plans). so i got some replies and then we started the project. invited everyone to come over at around 9:45 to the terrace at my place. by then i found out that the chairs on the terrace had all been taken back. so we went to pink rentals and rented some chairs(it was 75laari for each.can u believe that :D).

so we brought em back and luckily the workers had left a rope wich went all the way to the terrace through the lift space. so we were pulling em up when maa showed up. before ong there we were on the terrace with a speaker set and a laptop to play music. And boy can that speaker play music.heheh. varah obi. very loud too.

SO heres the ppl that came. Me, maree, lycan, muawwaz, adhly, nattu, maa, velvy, aesha, ifu, shaufa, farey, noor, ayya, chippalhey, starky. hmmmm...did i miss anyone? sorry if i did. and its gonna suck if i did.hehe. so neways, we played lavabaazee, UNO, had pizza which came at 12:30.Grrrrr... we ordere them at 10. grumble grumble. but still it was fun and we had a lot of drama. *whistle whistle* but neways we wraped it all up and when the last of us left it was around 3:30 i guess. so all n all it was fun. Happy new year ppl.